Man, life loves to throw you lemons!
Over the past year, my health has seen some major changes, even resulting in me having to have surgery this past November. Just when I thought everything would be fine and I would finally get “good” news, I visit my doctor and just more news. More news and more procedures to follow.
What was my first reaction? To cry. I called my best friend and cried my little heart out. 2016 was probably one of the most toughest years of my life. I just wanted and needed a break. I’m not a perfect Christian but I’m far from the worst Christian. And I strive to daily live a life pleasing to God. Do I mess up? All the time. But I pick myself up and continue to press forward.
So why is this all happening to me…AGAIN? Why me, Lord? This just isn’t fair. I don’t deserve this.
After crying for what seemed like eternity, I took a long, deep breath and had to speak some positivity into my situation. (You see, sometimes, when we face things, we have to face them alone. That is why it is imperative for us to know God for ourselves so that we can speak positivity when the devil tries to bring us down.) Remembering all that I’ve learned over the years, I began to speak life into my situation:
I’m not a perfect Christian but I’m far from the worst Christian.
-Psalm 1:6 says: “For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.” Therefore, I don’t need to worry about anyone but myself. As long as I maintain my righteousness, that’s all that matters and God will continue to cover me just as he’s always done.
-Matthew 7:1: “Judge not that ye be not judged”. Who am I anyway to determine what is perfect vs what is worst? I shouldn’t put labels on people as Christians because in essence that is a symbol of my judgment of others.
Why is this happening to me…AGAIN? But why me Lord?
-Philippians 4:13: “I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.”
-1 Peter 5:7: “Cast all of your anxiety onto him because he cares for you.”
All I need to do is cast this entire, heavy burden on the Lord and allow HIS strength to see me through.
This just isn’t fair. I don’t deserve all of this.
-James 1:2-4: “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
-2 Corinthians 4:8-9: “We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down but not destroyed.”
I can’t give up. It may not seem fair but I will overcome this as long as I continue to persevere!
Maybe you can relate to how I felt above. It may seem like in life, things are just constantly going downhill and you want to ask yourself the same questions that I asked myself. But know that we serve a GOD who is both able AND capable of doing exceeding, abundantly more than we can ask or think. We MUST take comfort knowing that he’s pulled us through before and he’ll pull us through again. He’s done it for me and I know he will do it for you too!
I hope that this encourages you as it is continuing to encourage me.
Stay blessed loves!
~Videllia
